I... am a lazy blogger. so its not surprising to see very little posts. XD everyone knows that, don't they?
wheee~
had a fun day out today with jessie xD
can't believe she said tt im a scheming sort of person laa.
do i look like i plan evil plots or smth ?
okeh, thing was like tt, i wanted to catch a movie.
so i told her at my house bus stop tt i wanted to. she said, 'see how first.'
after we alighted 269, we went up to the cinema and saw the time slots fer any movies avail.
couldnt decide on what we wanted. but i rly wanted to watch, so i said anything laa..
in the end, we decided on the sniper.
ehh, its nice laa!
don't wanna explain the entire movie plot.
anyways, the reason im sayin all tis is cus jessie said i was EVIL.
no im not!!
in the cinema hall, while waiting fer the movie to start,
she asked if i planned to watch a movie without tellin her at firs,
cus i was wearing a cardi. hahaha.
no laa jessie, not intentionally de(:
and obviously, its always uber cold in cinemas.
and then.. tada, i pulled my long black shawl outta my bag.
it felt as though i was a magician pulling out multi-colored dunno-what-thing.
hehheh xD
then she was like.. kinda happy laa.
then she wrapped herself up like.. ba zhang.
LMAO.
anyway, i would rate the sniper 4.5/5stars. 0.5stars reduction cus the movie was rather short.
87mins to be exact. that would be.. 1hr27mins.
quite shocked when jessie told me when it wasnt even 5pm yet when the movie ended.
cus we started at about 3.15?
after the movie, usual, didnt finish my coke and went toilet-visiting(:
walked slight PAST pepper lunch n decided to have my lunch cum dinner there.
ate.. chicken dunno what rice. $8.90.
not bad laa huh.
andandand!! i overcame my fear fer PEPPER LUNCH!!!
yay ~ thanks jessie xD
also ate black sesame ice cream. ehh nice laa.
after eating, jessie acc me to trim my eyebrows at inbeauty.
they do it pretty fast, approx 10mins.
the first time i did it on prom night day, it was quite painful.
cus i wasnt used to plucking my eyebrows.
now its okeh already. not so painful anymore.
and also. i know i have a eyebrow prob.
one side got tail, one side no tail.
lOl! beebee's gng to laugh at me again when he sees it.
after tt trimming session, we headed to popular to get jessie's organiser she had been looking fer, fer ages.
gahh.. after goin to popular, still don have.
nvm jessie, we'll find ur organiser someday((:
and then we went to red tomato to get our hair dyes.
wheee~ we bought the same brand, but im not sure if same color.
at $8,.90!
dunno when m gonna dye leis.
anyway its been a fun day out wit ya jess!
): n its my scope appointment at ttsh tmr.
im rly scared siah.
if die, how?
m gng wit mama alone n toe u nort to go wit mie cus ie kno ni won turn up de. trust mie.
okeh, choy. touchwood =]
m gonna be fine, right?
yupp(:
15april, here i come.
can't believe she said tt im a scheming sort of person laa.
do i look like i plan evil plots or smth ?
okeh, thing was like tt, i wanted to catch a movie.
so i told her at my house bus stop tt i wanted to. she said, 'see how first.'
after we alighted 269, we went up to the cinema and saw the time slots fer any movies avail.
couldnt decide on what we wanted. but i rly wanted to watch, so i said anything laa..
in the end, we decided on the sniper.
ehh, its nice laa!
don't wanna explain the entire movie plot.
anyways, the reason im sayin all tis is cus jessie said i was EVIL.
no im not!!
in the cinema hall, while waiting fer the movie to start,
she asked if i planned to watch a movie without tellin her at firs,
cus i was wearing a cardi. hahaha.
no laa jessie, not intentionally de(:
and obviously, its always uber cold in cinemas.
and then.. tada, i pulled my long black shawl outta my bag.
it felt as though i was a magician pulling out multi-colored dunno-what-thing.
hehheh xD
then she was like.. kinda happy laa.
then she wrapped herself up like.. ba zhang.
LMAO.
anyway, i would rate the sniper 4.5/5stars. 0.5stars reduction cus the movie was rather short.
87mins to be exact. that would be.. 1hr27mins.
quite shocked when jessie told me when it wasnt even 5pm yet when the movie ended.
cus we started at about 3.15?
after the movie, usual, didnt finish my coke and went toilet-visiting(:
walked slight PAST pepper lunch n decided to have my lunch cum dinner there.
ate.. chicken dunno what rice. $8.90.
not bad laa huh.
andandand!! i overcame my fear fer PEPPER LUNCH!!!
yay ~ thanks jessie xD
also ate black sesame ice cream. ehh nice laa.
after eating, jessie acc me to trim my eyebrows at inbeauty.
they do it pretty fast, approx 10mins.
the first time i did it on prom night day, it was quite painful.
cus i wasnt used to plucking my eyebrows.
now its okeh already. not so painful anymore.
and also. i know i have a eyebrow prob.
one side got tail, one side no tail.
lOl! beebee's gng to laugh at me again when he sees it.
after tt trimming session, we headed to popular to get jessie's organiser she had been looking fer, fer ages.
gahh.. after goin to popular, still don have.
nvm jessie, we'll find ur organiser someday((:
and then we went to red tomato to get our hair dyes.
wheee~ we bought the same brand, but im not sure if same color.
at $8,.90!
dunno when m gonna dye leis.
anyway its been a fun day out wit ya jess!
): n its my scope appointment at ttsh tmr.
im rly scared siah.
if die, how?
m gng wit mama alone n toe u nort to go wit mie cus ie kno ni won turn up de. trust mie.
okeh, choy. touchwood =]
m gonna be fine, right?
yupp(:
15april, here i come.
can't sleep..
saturday passed so fast.
went out with mom n bro during the early evening at marina square till late.
suggested going to kenny roger's for dinner at first. but i changed my mind and asked if they wanted to go to yuki yaki instead.
then we headed there. there was a queue.
the lady working there told us we needed to wait for at least an hour, and that would be after 8pm.i said okeh. and i left her my number.
and i REMEMBER pronouncing my number clearly, esp the number 'threes'.
so we headed down to john little to kill time.
saw very cute baby stuffs(: here they are..
went out with mom n bro during the early evening at marina square till late.
suggested going to kenny roger's for dinner at first. but i changed my mind and asked if they wanted to go to yuki yaki instead.
then we headed there. there was a queue.
the lady working there told us we needed to wait for at least an hour, and that would be after 8pm.i said okeh. and i left her my number.
and i REMEMBER pronouncing my number clearly, esp the number 'threes'.
so we headed down to john little to kill time.
saw very cute baby stuffs(: here they are..
MITTENS! sooo cute XD
a red dress(:
the left ones are for boys.. right for girls.couple shoes? lOl.
pink fat shoes for chubby babies. haha.
very wide range horr?
pink fat shoes for chubby babies. haha.
very wide range horr?
it was already 8.20. checked my phone again, no they didn't call.
then we went to yuki yaki.
the team manager or smth showed us the clipboard and said that they tried calling, but i was unavailable..
huh??
for a moment, i was thinking, 'shit! my prepaid no money??!!'
then i looked carefully at the number stated on the clipboard.
-.- wrong number. no wonder laa.
luckily we went up, if not we'll be waiting like stupid fools.
anyway, there was a table already.
ate till i really nearly exploded. lOl.
after eating, we went to 'cook' ice cream. =]
will upload the pics another day.
after eating, we walked back to the carpark.
passed by a CD shop. mom wanted to take a look.
in the end, she was so attracted to the songs they were playing,
and bought the CD, 'The Old Skool'. quite catchy old tunes.
but not my type. hehheh.
for now, 'll stop here.
bye~
oya, and that fat pig is sleeping now. iloveyou piggie ❤❤
please you laa, sprain leg go see sinseh or doctor.
the couch potato.
feel like im super useless.
i mean, i haven't done anything really useful in ages.
all i've done these few days are.. talk, text, eat, sleep, facebook-ed, watch dramas, download songs, read others' blogs and play audi.
any jobs available??
missed class chalet these two days. kept thinking of the bbq.
haha.
im sooo bored at home.
i mean, i haven't done anything really useful in ages.
all i've done these few days are.. talk, text, eat, sleep, facebook-ed, watch dramas, download songs, read others' blogs and play audi.
any jobs available??
missed class chalet these two days. kept thinking of the bbq.
haha.
im sooo bored at home. think im gonna bathe cookie later.
that cutie pie needs a bath already.
and its gonna be dinnertime soon! hope mom cooked smth nice.
and for the first time in ages, i ate fish yesterday night for dinner(:
and i was so frustrated doing up this new skin the entire afternoon.
partially because of the darn song. couldn't upload it properly.
but all's fine now =]
i smell dinner xD
byes!
wished somebody could be in the same boat as me. it feels kinda lost to be in all this. i'm wondering why does it happen to me. why cant we just be simple? i also wish that your solution to solving the problems aren't thru separation.
in fact, after facing all these ups & downs that are unhealthy for us, we should take us more seriously and cherish each other more.
oh gosh. my head really hurts now. wish the throbbing would stop.
please.... stop..
i just hope that we could be slightly more mature in handling our matters.
no one is comparing you, its just that it's every girl's wish to be treated the best, just like a princess.
to me, promises made by you are seemingly always empty, they are always unfulfilled.
it peeves me by the thought of it.
when are you going to fulfil your promises made uncountable times?
when are you going to start regretting you not fulfilling your promises when you could?
to me, when you are arriving soon.. my heart thumps fast,
and occasionally, i smile like a fool to myself looking forward to what's about to happen soon.
to you, when you are arriving soon.. you have no reaction whatsoever. you act calm.
to me, when you are about to see me that particular day, i get nervous,
and never fail to rush you over the phone to hurry.
to you, when you are about to see me that particular day, you probably find that im a nuisance, and take your own sweet time to come.
to me, i get delighted upon hearing the time you said you would be arriving.
to you, it feels like another repeated lie.
to me, it feels like you did it on purpose.
to you, you apologise n say you don't do it on purpose, something really cropped up.
to me, whatever problems we have, i always hope for the better solution to solve it, by talking it out and thinking of a solution.
to you, whatever problems we have, you never fail to feel that i would be happier off without you, and suggesting the undesirable solution.
why?
why does it always have to be like this?
why can't we just be normal for a moment?
you got a job, i was happy for you, unknowingly pushing you further away from me when i encouraged you to work hard.
i was dumb, stupid, daft, i admit to have done that.
how i wish i could turn back the clock and discouraged you from taking up the job.
it has been eating up so much of our time together.
adding on, it caused you to be a more fiery-tempered person.
it was already bad enough, and also, sad enough i had to tolerate the loneliness at home.
and to add on yet again, when you return home late at night, you get tired and all..
i feel like at times, i am talking to a vast, white wall.
when you open up, you talk about your day at work.. which you seem to enjoy.
while i, have nothing to say about my day..
i would just have to listen to what you have to say.
most of the time, you don't know how much i get worried for you.
when you get into trouble, when you don't meet up, when you're at work, when you pick a fight with others.
do you do that for me?
i guess you only get jealous over nothing for me.
i just wonder, how much more unfulfilled promises are there going to be?
are they going to be unfulfilled till the day i leave this world?
we captured the best memories of my life.
i know we have.
you said you treasured the both of us together,
i hope you really did.
April the 1st is approaching really soon.
i'm scared for what i'm about to face.
are you going to be there going through this phase of thick and thin with me?
i pray so hard for that answer to be yes.
are you going to be there when i break down?
i want it to be yes too.
i feel that i'm escaping from reality most of the time.
i know its what i have to face, but, must i?..
iloveyou.
260708 is etched deeply in my heart.
in fact, after facing all these ups & downs that are unhealthy for us, we should take us more seriously and cherish each other more.
oh gosh. my head really hurts now. wish the throbbing would stop.
please.... stop..
i just hope that we could be slightly more mature in handling our matters.
no one is comparing you, its just that it's every girl's wish to be treated the best, just like a princess.
to me, promises made by you are seemingly always empty, they are always unfulfilled.
it peeves me by the thought of it.
when are you going to fulfil your promises made uncountable times?
when are you going to start regretting you not fulfilling your promises when you could?
to me, when you are arriving soon.. my heart thumps fast,
and occasionally, i smile like a fool to myself looking forward to what's about to happen soon.
to you, when you are arriving soon.. you have no reaction whatsoever. you act calm.
to me, when you are about to see me that particular day, i get nervous,
and never fail to rush you over the phone to hurry.
to you, when you are about to see me that particular day, you probably find that im a nuisance, and take your own sweet time to come.
to me, i get delighted upon hearing the time you said you would be arriving.
to you, it feels like another repeated lie.
to me, it feels like you did it on purpose.
to you, you apologise n say you don't do it on purpose, something really cropped up.
to me, whatever problems we have, i always hope for the better solution to solve it, by talking it out and thinking of a solution.
to you, whatever problems we have, you never fail to feel that i would be happier off without you, and suggesting the undesirable solution.
why?
why does it always have to be like this?
why can't we just be normal for a moment?
you got a job, i was happy for you, unknowingly pushing you further away from me when i encouraged you to work hard.
i was dumb, stupid, daft, i admit to have done that.
how i wish i could turn back the clock and discouraged you from taking up the job.
it has been eating up so much of our time together.
adding on, it caused you to be a more fiery-tempered person.
it was already bad enough, and also, sad enough i had to tolerate the loneliness at home.
and to add on yet again, when you return home late at night, you get tired and all..
i feel like at times, i am talking to a vast, white wall.
when you open up, you talk about your day at work.. which you seem to enjoy.
while i, have nothing to say about my day..
i would just have to listen to what you have to say.
most of the time, you don't know how much i get worried for you.
when you get into trouble, when you don't meet up, when you're at work, when you pick a fight with others.
do you do that for me?
i guess you only get jealous over nothing for me.
i just wonder, how much more unfulfilled promises are there going to be?
are they going to be unfulfilled till the day i leave this world?
we captured the best memories of my life.
i know we have.
you said you treasured the both of us together,
i hope you really did.
April the 1st is approaching really soon.
i'm scared for what i'm about to face.
are you going to be there going through this phase of thick and thin with me?
i pray so hard for that answer to be yes.
are you going to be there when i break down?
i want it to be yes too.
i feel that i'm escaping from reality most of the time.
i know its what i have to face, but, must i?..
iloveyou.
260708 is etched deeply in my heart.
shuang si lerr. =]
tudey laogong 'dated' mie thrice tudey =]
hehe.
he said he lost billions of 'it'.
haha xD
tmr wanna date again.
he sae must wait fer him come home.
okeh lorr..
went fer interview tis morning at wang cafe.
managed to get tt job on the spot =)
as service crew.
interview was quite interesting..
might be posted to different locations.
she even asked if i was willing to work at changi.
i told her i dont mind.
anyway, changi airport is my fav plc =D
hehheh..
jus cub-ed da foney wit baby.
cus mom came home.
anyway, told boss tt 'll start work next wed.
yay! hope to work long hours n pay off my debts..
n owe HER nth.
till then, goodbye =]
hehe.
he said he lost billions of 'it'.
haha xD
tmr wanna date again.
he sae must wait fer him come home.
okeh lorr..
went fer interview tis morning at wang cafe.
managed to get tt job on the spot =)
as service crew.
interview was quite interesting..
might be posted to different locations.
she even asked if i was willing to work at changi.
i told her i dont mind.
anyway, changi airport is my fav plc =D
hehheh..
jus cub-ed da foney wit baby.
cus mom came home.
anyway, told boss tt 'll start work next wed.
yay! hope to work long hours n pay off my debts..
n owe HER nth.
till then, goodbye =]
XD so happy..
hello world,
hao jiu bu jian, wo hui lai lerr.
from honeymoon with laogong =]
so happy... bet with laogong the day b4 ytd,
tt whoever wakes up the latest will be da pig.
WAHAHA.
n da loser has to buy the couple pig,
tt costs S$28.90 from juzz so cute.
HE LOST. XD
so now, he burned his pocket,
n has to buy it on our next date.
hehe.
ndthen, mou mou ren not happy,
wanna bet again, see who'll be da next pig.
hahahahaha.
i lost... *sobs*
woke up later then him today by alot.
ndthen argue with baby n told him i never lose!
bud in the end i lost..
so now, i have to get tt pig pillow from artbox.
luckily cheaper than his one =]
WAHAHA.
spend alot of time with darling tudey.
very happy.
darling "dated" mie tudey.
during the "date", we laughed, damn shiok mann.
we "dated" twice tudey, cus laogong huai dan.
hehheh(:
2nd date, got SOMEBODY disturb us.
*sigh*
dhen at 2.43pm, i forced baby to bathe.
cus baby shot SO many times tudey,
so ask hym to go pongpong.
after baby bathed, he went to eat.
tak so long to eat summor, pig.
aft he ate, he called mie.
i was figurin out the way to use the damn oven.
bud cannot.
the instructions in the manual too chim.
dhen in the end, i put the manual aside.
and talked to darling instead..
both of us were tired, so...... i asked him to take a short nap.
it was early 4plus tt time.
so i told him to slp fer an hour.
dhen wakie at 5.10pm tgt =]
in the end, didnt slp AT ALL.
cus of his didi.. -.-
dhen in the end, we talked till dono what ghost time.
it was ald 6plus.
suddenly, mama came home.
so i had to hang up..
when we needed to hang,
baby said, "ru guo ke yi de hua, ni jiu msg wo."
dhen i said ok.
we hung up.
its 1.02am now.
it was a very tormenting 6 hours fer both us.
cus we couldnt hear each other's voic.
plus, i couldnt msg much.
cus of tt QUEEN.
i only msg-ed baby once every hour.
felt tt our rship was always put to the test.
bud... WE KNO WE CN BOTH OVERCOME EVERYTING. =]
now, m talkin on foney with baby agn!
so happy.
altho things arent always right fer us,
bud in the end, both of us are always happy wit the outcome.
i love you baby~
and... nothing's gonna change my luv fer u.
tmr m plannin to escape from tis ghost plc at 9am SHARP.
so baby cn call ndthen, we cn chat.
cant wait..
tts all fer tudey.
gng to cont talkin to baby nw.
bb~
hao jiu bu jian, wo hui lai lerr.
from honeymoon with laogong =]
so happy... bet with laogong the day b4 ytd,
tt whoever wakes up the latest will be da pig.
WAHAHA.
n da loser has to buy the couple pig,
tt costs S$28.90 from juzz so cute.
HE LOST. XD
so now, he burned his pocket,
n has to buy it on our next date.
hehe.
ndthen, mou mou ren not happy,
wanna bet again, see who'll be da next pig.
hahahahaha.
i lost... *sobs*
woke up later then him today by alot.
ndthen argue with baby n told him i never lose!
bud in the end i lost..
so now, i have to get tt pig pillow from artbox.
luckily cheaper than his one =]
WAHAHA.
spend alot of time with darling tudey.
very happy.
darling "dated" mie tudey.
during the "date", we laughed, damn shiok mann.
we "dated" twice tudey, cus laogong huai dan.
hehheh(:
2nd date, got SOMEBODY disturb us.
*sigh*
dhen at 2.43pm, i forced baby to bathe.
cus baby shot SO many times tudey,
so ask hym to go pongpong.
after baby bathed, he went to eat.
tak so long to eat summor, pig.
aft he ate, he called mie.
i was figurin out the way to use the damn oven.
bud cannot.
the instructions in the manual too chim.
dhen in the end, i put the manual aside.
and talked to darling instead..
both of us were tired, so...... i asked him to take a short nap.
it was early 4plus tt time.
so i told him to slp fer an hour.
dhen wakie at 5.10pm tgt =]
in the end, didnt slp AT ALL.
cus of his didi.. -.-
dhen in the end, we talked till dono what ghost time.
it was ald 6plus.
suddenly, mama came home.
so i had to hang up..
when we needed to hang,
baby said, "ru guo ke yi de hua, ni jiu msg wo."
dhen i said ok.
we hung up.
its 1.02am now.
it was a very tormenting 6 hours fer both us.
cus we couldnt hear each other's voic.
plus, i couldnt msg much.
cus of tt QUEEN.
i only msg-ed baby once every hour.
felt tt our rship was always put to the test.
bud... WE KNO WE CN BOTH OVERCOME EVERYTING. =]
now, m talkin on foney with baby agn!
so happy.
altho things arent always right fer us,
bud in the end, both of us are always happy wit the outcome.
i love you baby~
and... nothing's gonna change my luv fer u.
tmr m plannin to escape from tis ghost plc at 9am SHARP.
so baby cn call ndthen, we cn chat.
cant wait..
tts all fer tudey.
gng to cont talkin to baby nw.
bb~
Christmas over~
boo.. why is xmas over so fast?
this year's xmas didnt really hold a special meaning to me.
it used to... in the previous years.
but it just kinda felt different this time round.
idk why.
realised i feel stressed up about many stuff nowadays.
are they unnecessary woes?
hmm.. someone tell me please.
i havent blogged for six days.. hehe.
i got a wonderful xmas gift from baby.
it's a handmade scrapbook filled with our pics,
and with captions of course.
haven't taken any pics yet, but'll do so n upload em soon.
miss baby.. haven't been talking to him much these few days.
it was a miracle he woke up at 9 this morning to wish me happy 5mths anni =]
HAPPY 5 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY TO U TOO BABY!
its 11.40pm now, and yet m not sleepy.
thinking of staying up late and play GO..
or maybe hang out on facebook.
oh yea, i was thinkin maybe i could take a few pics of my newly renovated home,
and post it here =]
everything has really changed in this house,
even the atmosphere..
but the house kinda seems brighter and spacious.
well, 'll upload those pics too another day.
for now, m gng back to doin my stuff.
i love you baby~
this year's xmas didnt really hold a special meaning to me.
it used to... in the previous years.
but it just kinda felt different this time round.
idk why.
realised i feel stressed up about many stuff nowadays.
are they unnecessary woes?
hmm.. someone tell me please.
i havent blogged for six days.. hehe.
i got a wonderful xmas gift from baby.
it's a handmade scrapbook filled with our pics,
and with captions of course.
haven't taken any pics yet, but'll do so n upload em soon.
miss baby.. haven't been talking to him much these few days.
it was a miracle he woke up at 9 this morning to wish me happy 5mths anni =]
HAPPY 5 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY TO U TOO BABY!
its 11.40pm now, and yet m not sleepy.
thinking of staying up late and play GO..
or maybe hang out on facebook.
oh yea, i was thinkin maybe i could take a few pics of my newly renovated home,
and post it here =]
everything has really changed in this house,
even the atmosphere..
but the house kinda seems brighter and spacious.
well, 'll upload those pics too another day.
for now, m gng back to doin my stuff.
i love you baby~
this blog is alive and kicking once more XD
spent... 3hours working on this blogskin.
so there better be people appreciating this man.
if not 'll really strangle myself. haha XD
yea, feels kinda strange blogging at 4.03am.
was chattin with an OLD friend just now.
=]
anyway, this blog has been dead for more than 3mths.
pathetic, i know.
partially due to exams back then,
plus...
i moved out of my amk apt to sengkang for a month.
cus the amk apt was under renovations.
well, now m back home! =]
really like the new look of the house.
feels fresher and it seems like its not as warm as the past.
as usual, loads have happened these few mths.
prelim exams, REAL O level exams, prom, moving out and in, class chalet,
and of course my bday bbq (:
and soon, it'll be christmas in exactly... 6days.
cant wait!
according to mama, the box of christmas tree is at papa's house.
so this sun, m gonna ask papa to bring it over,
so i could set up the tree and hang the ornaments =]
m sure its gonna be fun.
another thing is.. its hard to find a stable job now.
havent found a job yet.
except for that waitress job at various hotels.
that one isn't even stable at all.
and i cant believe baby can work at raffles town club as a waiter for so long.
when i havent even found a job.
my cousin introduced me to starhub.
cus he knows his friend is hiring customer svc officers there.
so he recommended me as i did this job last year.
m waiting for the good news now XD
hope everything goes as planned.
the next thing i have to do now is to get xmas gifts for my friends.
if not.. PPL ARE GONNA START GRUMBLING FOR THEIR PRESENTS.
hehheh.
and.. m gonna try to be consistent in blogging.
know i always fail to blog regularly, but..
i'll try this time round =)
and now, its time for me to sleep.
eyes are really miniscule now.
night night~
so there better be people appreciating this man.
if not 'll really strangle myself. haha XD
yea, feels kinda strange blogging at 4.03am.
was chattin with an OLD friend just now.
=]
anyway, this blog has been dead for more than 3mths.
pathetic, i know.
partially due to exams back then,
plus...
i moved out of my amk apt to sengkang for a month.
cus the amk apt was under renovations.
well, now m back home! =]
really like the new look of the house.
feels fresher and it seems like its not as warm as the past.
as usual, loads have happened these few mths.
prelim exams, REAL O level exams, prom, moving out and in, class chalet,
and of course my bday bbq (:
and soon, it'll be christmas in exactly... 6days.
cant wait!
according to mama, the box of christmas tree is at papa's house.
so this sun, m gonna ask papa to bring it over,
so i could set up the tree and hang the ornaments =]
m sure its gonna be fun.
another thing is.. its hard to find a stable job now.
havent found a job yet.
except for that waitress job at various hotels.
that one isn't even stable at all.
and i cant believe baby can work at raffles town club as a waiter for so long.
when i havent even found a job.
my cousin introduced me to starhub.
cus he knows his friend is hiring customer svc officers there.
so he recommended me as i did this job last year.
m waiting for the good news now XD
hope everything goes as planned.
the next thing i have to do now is to get xmas gifts for my friends.
if not.. PPL ARE GONNA START GRUMBLING FOR THEIR PRESENTS.
hehheh.
and.. m gonna try to be consistent in blogging.
know i always fail to blog regularly, but..
i'll try this time round =)
and now, its time for me to sleep.
eyes are really miniscule now.
night night~
i feel sooooo guilty..
for eating an entire mooncake including the yolk!
=[ that is super fattening.
and the blog has been dead for a few days.
no time.. and lazy. haha.
oh its dinner time.
blog again later if i have the time.
=]
ciao.
=[ that is super fattening.
and the blog has been dead for a few days.
no time.. and lazy. haha.
oh its dinner time.
blog again later if i have the time.
=]
ciao.
businessman very busy talkin on fone. 
still on phone!!!
shaun n huiru.
perfect match made in heaven. =]Shaun's turn to drink the 'stuff'.
sorry, u gotta view this vid sideways. jiahui.. =]]
=]]
skipped school today.
not pon ah, its sick hor.
haha.
i very guai one. =))
much has happened these few days.
esp on the 27th august.
we had O lvl prelim exams the past few days.
it'll resume once the sept hols are over.
and i got a feeling i'm not gonna do well for SS.
didnt have enough time for that particular paper.
mrs ess is gonna kill me.
anyway, on the 27th, went to central with val and jh only.
invited shaun to come earlier.
then he told val he quit pool.
then he got tempted and came in the end. =.=''
he's a good player la.
compared to him, i feel soooo noob.
haha. then aaron came. even better player.
val kept scolding me..
beebee called and i went out of kpool for "a while".
there were ppl smoking in the aircon building.
it was damn stinky la..
the "no smoking" sign was so obvious.
then after talkin to bee over the phone, val msgd me to ask me to go back.
then they alr paid and were preparing to leave.
got down the lift and went to mac's to eat and 'study'..
aaron used my laptop till veh 'pekchek'.
then he didnt wanna use it anymore.
after we ate for a while, i told aaron i still wanted my water,
and dont do anything to it.
he took the curry sauce and poured it in my water..
then threw my panadol 'extra' tablet into the disgusting solution.
then i thought of playing zhong ji mi ma. =]]
and the forfeit was to drink a sip of that disgusting thing.
it was super fun. I NEVER LOST FOR THAT FEW ROUNDS!
then after each round, we added in one item at a time.
we started adding milo, coke, strepsils[i spat it out from my mouth.],
5 cent coin, cabbage, french fries, and tissue.
all these rounds i didnt kena and was pretty sure i wont kena.
then val said if i lost the next round, i have to do a pole dance.
and then i really lost.. =.=''
went out of macdonalds. heng there's no pole..
if not i'll really die.
they told me to dance. then alot of ppl were staring.
haha. didnt dare to dance of course.
then aaron made a bet with me again,
we were to play scissors, paper, stone.
if i lost, i have to stand in front of the glass door and dance.
if i won, i have to stand behind the bushes, which wasnt really visible la.
i lost, again..
then i went into macs, didnt dare to do anything at all.
then aaron said i have to dance in the sch theatrette the next day.
then i said okay..
huiru and cheese joined us at night, around 8plus.
we took pics of huiru, shaun and cheese.
huiru and shaun are SUPER compatitable la..
its a match made in heaven
yesterday came.. after combined science practical, shift one went into the theatrette first.
i changed my forfeit to playing the piano and singing.
shift two came in, val wasnt happy my forfeit was changed.
in the end, i still had to dance.
but i didnt.
till now, the forfeit isnt done yet. haha.
today, i stayed at home.
cuz i was sick.
beebee skipped sch today too.
he went out with mama to buy stuffs.
then we msg-ed.
i went to the doc's at around 8.45, i think..
quite a number of ppl.
the doc diagnosed me with throat infection, runny nose and slight fever.
total of 5 different medicines.
and i warned him not to give me syrups b4!
and he gave me a bottle of red syrup for cough.
=[
its not nice..
anyway, im blogging now cuz i have a little time to spare.
waiting for my maid to cook lunch for me.
talked to bee over the phone quite a few times today.
but each time only a short period..
im going to eat already.
i'll upload the videos taken on that day in another post later..
and the pics taken. =]
buhbye~
not pon ah, its sick hor.
haha.
i very guai one. =))
much has happened these few days.
esp on the 27th august.
we had O lvl prelim exams the past few days.
it'll resume once the sept hols are over.
and i got a feeling i'm not gonna do well for SS.
didnt have enough time for that particular paper.
mrs ess is gonna kill me.
anyway, on the 27th, went to central with val and jh only.
invited shaun to come earlier.
then he told val he quit pool.
then he got tempted and came in the end. =.=''
he's a good player la.
compared to him, i feel soooo noob.
haha. then aaron came. even better player.
val kept scolding me..
beebee called and i went out of kpool for "a while".
there were ppl smoking in the aircon building.
it was damn stinky la..
the "no smoking" sign was so obvious.
then after talkin to bee over the phone, val msgd me to ask me to go back.
then they alr paid and were preparing to leave.
got down the lift and went to mac's to eat and 'study'..
aaron used my laptop till veh 'pekchek'.
then he didnt wanna use it anymore.
after we ate for a while, i told aaron i still wanted my water,
and dont do anything to it.
he took the curry sauce and poured it in my water..
then threw my panadol 'extra' tablet into the disgusting solution.
then i thought of playing zhong ji mi ma. =]]
and the forfeit was to drink a sip of that disgusting thing.
it was super fun. I NEVER LOST FOR THAT FEW ROUNDS!
then after each round, we added in one item at a time.
we started adding milo, coke, strepsils[i spat it out from my mouth.],
5 cent coin, cabbage, french fries, and tissue.
all these rounds i didnt kena and was pretty sure i wont kena.
then val said if i lost the next round, i have to do a pole dance.
and then i really lost.. =.=''
went out of macdonalds. heng there's no pole..
if not i'll really die.
they told me to dance. then alot of ppl were staring.
haha. didnt dare to dance of course.
then aaron made a bet with me again,
we were to play scissors, paper, stone.
if i lost, i have to stand in front of the glass door and dance.
if i won, i have to stand behind the bushes, which wasnt really visible la.
i lost, again..
then i went into macs, didnt dare to do anything at all.
then aaron said i have to dance in the sch theatrette the next day.
then i said okay..
huiru and cheese joined us at night, around 8plus.
we took pics of huiru, shaun and cheese.
huiru and shaun are SUPER compatitable la..
its a match made in heaven
yesterday came.. after combined science practical, shift one went into the theatrette first.
i changed my forfeit to playing the piano and singing.
shift two came in, val wasnt happy my forfeit was changed.
in the end, i still had to dance.
but i didnt.
till now, the forfeit isnt done yet. haha.
today, i stayed at home.
cuz i was sick.
beebee skipped sch today too.
he went out with mama to buy stuffs.
then we msg-ed.
i went to the doc's at around 8.45, i think..
quite a number of ppl.
the doc diagnosed me with throat infection, runny nose and slight fever.
total of 5 different medicines.
and i warned him not to give me syrups b4!
and he gave me a bottle of red syrup for cough.
=[
its not nice..
anyway, im blogging now cuz i have a little time to spare.
waiting for my maid to cook lunch for me.
talked to bee over the phone quite a few times today.
but each time only a short period..
im going to eat already.
i'll upload the videos taken on that day in another post later..
and the pics taken. =]
buhbye~
oh i forgot.
forgot forgot forgot..
haha. to blog about today.
lmao. i know im slow.
anyway, after EL paper 1,
val, jess, liping, eileen and i went to casuarina.
yes, for prata again..
after eating, we went our separate ways soon after.
bee wasnt feeling well today.
xin tong. =[
summore throw temper at me.
then val and i boarded 265 to go to my house.
SUPPOSED to study at my house.
in the end, it became a singing session. =.='
we started off singing a lot of jay chou's songs..
then so funny, was talkin to bee over then phone in the room.
val sent me a msg, saying she wanted to drink water.
LOL. hai wo yao zou out of my room take for her water.
and then close to 6pm, bee told me to drink salt water.
tried drinking it..
stupid idea.
spat out all the water i drank.
its super salty..
then soon after, had to peii val down to send her home..
passed by a wake.
i got scared by the noise made.
and called bee to accompany me thru the phone.
the music from the wake was gettin louder and louder.
then i walked faster and started to run to the void deck..
i know i must be stupid to be freaked out by such stuff.
stupid me.
bee thinks so too.
haha. to blog about today.
lmao. i know im slow.
anyway, after EL paper 1,
val, jess, liping, eileen and i went to casuarina.
yes, for prata again..
after eating, we went our separate ways soon after.
bee wasnt feeling well today.
xin tong. =[
summore throw temper at me.
then val and i boarded 265 to go to my house.
SUPPOSED to study at my house.
in the end, it became a singing session. =.='
we started off singing a lot of jay chou's songs..
then so funny, was talkin to bee over then phone in the room.
val sent me a msg, saying she wanted to drink water.
LOL. hai wo yao zou out of my room take for her water.
and then close to 6pm, bee told me to drink salt water.
tried drinking it..
stupid idea.
spat out all the water i drank.
its super salty..
then soon after, had to peii val down to send her home..
passed by a wake.
i got scared by the noise made.
and called bee to accompany me thru the phone.
the music from the wake was gettin louder and louder.
then i walked faster and started to run to the void deck..
i know i must be stupid to be freaked out by such stuff.
stupid me.
bee thinks so too.
stoopid cough.
okay i know im askin a stupid qn.
but, why must humans suffer from cough?
not fair. =[
most prolly gg to see doc tmr.
must ask val to accompany me.
of all times, now then kena..
anyway val just promised me to acc me to the doc's.
english paper 2 tmr. not nervous.
can prepare to die soon.
anyway... i didnt blog bout the sakae day.
so.. here it is.
went out for liping's bday celebration,
last friday. 22 aug. =]
location was at OUB centre.
OUB's sakae sushi only had sushi belt seating..
there were only two tables that had 'four-per-table' seating.
obviously we didnt get it la.
that's a rare chance of prolly, 2% we get the tables.
ah then, we sat at the sushi belt.
sat according to.. jessie[extreme left], jielin, me, liping, siqin and eileen[extreme right].
phone broke down on me. =[
got super pissed.
i thought my phone auto-deleted ALL my messages.
was msging bee at that time.
then i couldnt even send or rcv smses.
so i called him to tell him what happened.
in addition, i lost my appetite..
urgh.
after awhile.. the messages came back.
inbox, sent msgs and saved msgs folders were no longer empty.
didnt wanna take the risk, so i deleted ALL my sent msgs.
cuz i couldnt bear to delete inbox msgs.
then after restarting the phone a couple of times,
my phone got back to normal..
could send msgs alr.
was so happy suddenly, and had the appetite to eatalot.
haha.
done alot of lame stuff there.
and ate alot. really.
my jian feii plan pao tang ler. =[
stupid restaurant. serve so nice food for what.
LMAO. jkjk.
we left at about.. close to 9pm.
after that, we took the mrt back to amk.
laughed alot on the way back.
oh yeah, before gg to sakae,
liping, jessie, jielin and i went to suntec to [window]shop.
saw loads of cute precious moments figurines.
i want!! CAN?
oh yeah, and these are siqin's final art pieces to hand in for O levels.
its really artistic lor.
wish i could paint like her. =]
a boy stacking poker cards one on top of another.
dont blame me, cant rotate the hamster pic. another one of 
sakae chawanmushi. wobbly egg. haha.
maki roll, i think. had a bit of prawn shells.
the so-called deserts.
if u realise, all precious moments figurines i like,
are couple figurines.
dk why. just like it. =))
okay i blogged for a long time alr.
val is gg to kill me for making her wait so long to start the game.
we agreed to play UNO.
so.. cya~
but, why must humans suffer from cough?
not fair. =[
most prolly gg to see doc tmr.
must ask val to accompany me.
of all times, now then kena..
anyway val just promised me to acc me to the doc's.
english paper 2 tmr. not nervous.
can prepare to die soon.
anyway... i didnt blog bout the sakae day.
so.. here it is.
went out for liping's bday celebration,
last friday. 22 aug. =]
location was at OUB centre.
OUB's sakae sushi only had sushi belt seating..
there were only two tables that had 'four-per-table' seating.
obviously we didnt get it la.
that's a rare chance of prolly, 2% we get the tables.
ah then, we sat at the sushi belt.
sat according to.. jessie[extreme left], jielin, me, liping, siqin and eileen[extreme right].
phone broke down on me. =[
got super pissed.
i thought my phone auto-deleted ALL my messages.
was msging bee at that time.
then i couldnt even send or rcv smses.
so i called him to tell him what happened.
in addition, i lost my appetite..
urgh.
after awhile.. the messages came back.
inbox, sent msgs and saved msgs folders were no longer empty.
didnt wanna take the risk, so i deleted ALL my sent msgs.
cuz i couldnt bear to delete inbox msgs.
then after restarting the phone a couple of times,
my phone got back to normal..
could send msgs alr.
was so happy suddenly, and had the appetite to eat
haha.
done alot of lame stuff there.
and ate alot. really.
my jian feii plan pao tang ler. =[
stupid restaurant. serve so nice food for what.
LMAO. jkjk.
we left at about.. close to 9pm.
after that, we took the mrt back to amk.
laughed alot on the way back.
oh yeah, before gg to sakae,
liping, jessie, jielin and i went to suntec to [window]shop.
saw loads of cute precious moments figurines.
i want!! CAN?
oh yeah, and these are siqin's final art pieces to hand in for O levels.
its really artistic lor.
wish i could paint like her. =]
a boy stacking poker cards one on top of another.
dont blame me, cant rotate the hamster pic. another one of siqin's creation. =]]
sakae chawanmushi. wobbly egg. haha.
maki roll, i think. had a bit of prawn shells.urgh.
okay this is defintely not shit. =]
was so sian i used liping's wasabi mixed with soy sauce,
and her chopstix to invent this disgusting image. haha.
the so-called deserts.
the precious moments figurines are super cute.
but price not cute.
if u realise, all precious moments figurines i like,
are couple figurines.
dk why. just like it. =))
okay i blogged for a long time alr.
val is gg to kill me for making her wait so long to start the game.
we agreed to play UNO.
so.. cya~
im tired.. so is everyone in 5F.
the crocodile print gladiator shoe he promised me~
im really really really tired today. the whole day was entirely packed..
plus there might be a possibility of me failing fnn.
cuz MS SIM LOST MY PICS!!
argh.
after fnn, it was math.
he's screwed in the mind today..
he didnt wanna let us go during recess.
and retorted aaron by saying he isn't hungry at all.
SO WHAT IF U'RE NOT HUNGRY.
at least let us go.. =.=''
bee didnt reply me till after recess.
asked him why.. he said he didnt wanna disturb me.
and he claimed to be thoughtful.
LMAO. ya la ya la.
u're the most thoughtful amongst all.. can?
=]
went to the library during CL lesson.
and did a little of poa.
most of the time was spent at the lib counter slacking away..
more time wasted again.
*sigh*
and then i cont'd msgin bee..
the most boring lesson today was geog.
idk why.. it lasted till about 2pm.
then.. we had a break.
jessie, liping, siqin and jielin accompanied me to sch opp to get food.
=]] hahas. jielin got sth too..
dunno why when it was time for chem practical at 3.30,
i turned emo. ==
hated that feeling.. plus daryl disturbed me..
and told me to shuddup when i din even say a single thing.
then i stared at him.
then he told me, "eh, don't cry ah."
i ignored him.
did an irritating experiment today.
i only liked the last part, where we had to drop substance P and Q into the liquid.
=))) i liked jessie's solution even better!!
her's was a very cute shade of pink..
sweet~
ignore the face behind. =]Jessie's sweet creation~
Substance Q, which led to the pinkish color.i guess that's all for today..
oh yeah, i havent done my english compre and poa yet..
argh..
buhbye~
it was the oral exams for us today.
venue was at the library.
ours was room 2. =]
ppl who were supposed to wait for their turn to get into room 2 were...
aaron, shaun, anna, hock heng, daryl, siqin, me, jason and hui fung.
i was the last girl.
aaron and shaun made the two examiners laugh.
so did i!!!
haha. honestly, it was the BEST oral exam i've been thru ever!
started with reading aloud first.
the passage was about stuff regarding rugby.
then we moved on to the picture discussion..
the attention was focussed on 4 girls,
who were standing in one line.
they were at the sports stadium.
then i elaborated more about it..
then both examiners smiled.
after that, we went on to the conversational topics.
first question was, "Tell us about a time when you misjudged someone or something."
then.. i started talking. =]
i actually paused for about 10 seconds to think,
and i told both examiners, "Sorry, please give a moment to think."
then the male examiner replied, "sure, take your time."
and i finally thought of the times whereby i would scream at either my maid, sister or brother for misplacing my stuff or putting my stuff away.
and then i would find my stuff eventually after some time..
then the female examiner asked,
"would you actually apologise to the person for misjudging him/her?"
i replied, "yes i would.. its not that hard to say sorry actually."
then the examiner asked, "how about those ppl who find it difficult to say sorry?"
then i said, "it doesn't matter, he/she should just apologise and show a sorry face, it doesnt really matter whether he/she means it or not."
haha. i tell you, i felt like a hypocrite when i said that.. =]
then she asked, "so you mean it doesnt matter whether the apology is being meant or not? just show it will do?"
then i said, "yeah, its the sorry face that matters"
then the three of us laughed.
the entire conversation was hilarious that i didnt wanna end it..
then both of them talked about another topic regarding sports.
and more 'lmaos' came.
then somehow we ended the conversation and....
he ended it. XD
then he said that i could leave.
then i stood up and said, 'it was nice meeting both of you.'
and then she replied, 'same.. you take care.'
then before i closed the door, i said, 'you both take care too. =]'..
seriously, it was the ONE and ONLY oral exam i ever enjoyed.
and it's the last.. =[
now im dead sure i'll score better than shaun ang!!
talked to tardface just now.
i luv my breakfast soooo much!!! [only THREE ppl including me know what this means so far.]
haha.
oh yeah, and im super pissed that there is a possibilty
prom night will be celebrated in school grounds.
omg. it'll be super embarrassing being dressed in a
cocktail dress, walkin to school.
imagine that..
ttyl~
venue was at the library.
ours was room 2. =]
ppl who were supposed to wait for their turn to get into room 2 were...
aaron, shaun, anna, hock heng, daryl, siqin, me, jason and hui fung.
i was the last girl.
aaron and shaun made the two examiners laugh.
so did i!!!
haha. honestly, it was the BEST oral exam i've been thru ever!
started with reading aloud first.
the passage was about stuff regarding rugby.
then we moved on to the picture discussion..
the attention was focussed on 4 girls,
who were standing in one line.
they were at the sports stadium.
then i elaborated more about it..
then both examiners smiled.
after that, we went on to the conversational topics.
first question was, "Tell us about a time when you misjudged someone or something."
then.. i started talking. =]
i actually paused for about 10 seconds to think,
and i told both examiners, "Sorry, please give a moment to think."
then the male examiner replied, "sure, take your time."
and i finally thought of the times whereby i would scream at either my maid, sister or brother for misplacing my stuff or putting my stuff away.
and then i would find my stuff eventually after some time..
then the female examiner asked,
"would you actually apologise to the person for misjudging him/her?"
i replied, "yes i would.. its not that hard to say sorry actually."
then the examiner asked, "how about those ppl who find it difficult to say sorry?"
then i said, "it doesn't matter, he/she should just apologise and show a sorry face, it doesnt really matter whether he/she means it or not."
haha. i tell you, i felt like a hypocrite when i said that.. =]
then she asked, "so you mean it doesnt matter whether the apology is being meant or not? just show it will do?"
then i said, "yeah, its the sorry face that matters"
then the three of us laughed.
the entire conversation was hilarious that i didnt wanna end it..
then both of them talked about another topic regarding sports.
and more 'lmaos' came.
then somehow we ended the conversation and....
he ended it. XD
then he said that i could leave.
then i stood up and said, 'it was nice meeting both of you.'
and then she replied, 'same.. you take care.'
then before i closed the door, i said, 'you both take care too. =]'..
seriously, it was the ONE and ONLY oral exam i ever enjoyed.
and it's the last.. =[
now im dead sure i'll score better than shaun ang!!
talked to tardface just now.
i luv my breakfast soooo much!!! [only THREE ppl including me know what this means so far.]
haha.
oh yeah, and im super pissed that there is a possibilty
prom night will be celebrated in school grounds.
omg. it'll be super embarrassing being dressed in a
cocktail dress, walkin to school.
imagine that..
ttyl~
if u noticed.. my last blog post was in april.
BUT ITS NOT.
cuz i deleted all my previous posts.
but i couldnt bear to delete the previous one.
so... that's why its still here.
blog has been revived again.
and this time.. im really really really gonna be consistent in blogging.
haha.
ppl like wanfong always ask for updates..
anyway, been stressed up these few days.
mostly about piling school work and unending lessons.
plus my lousy O lvl chinese result. ----> C5
i've decided to give up retaking chinese,
and concentrate on other subjects which i think i can score in.
i feel its better this way.
woke up in the early today, to do chem homewk.
only did organic chem.
THEN JESSIE TOLD ME WE HAVE TO COMPLETE CHEMICAL REACTIONS ALSO!!
arghhh.. im gonna die just by doing chemistry alone.
im really glad to have dardar and my besties by my side. =))
im plannin to do fnn tmr, chemistry and poa.
please let time side with me.
oya, went to xin wang cafe today.
the chef soooo bad.. wanna sabotage my jian feii plan.
he put so much chicken breast skin in my baked rice.
and im clever enough to remove the skin. =]
hahas.
jianlong is pestering me liao.
gg to sleep soon..
tata~
BUT ITS NOT.
cuz i deleted all my previous posts.
but i couldnt bear to delete the previous one.
so... that's why its still here.
blog has been revived again.
and this time.. im really really really gonna be consistent in blogging.
haha.
ppl like wanfong always ask for updates..
anyway, been stressed up these few days.
mostly about piling school work and unending lessons.
plus my lousy O lvl chinese result. ----> C5
i've decided to give up retaking chinese,
and concentrate on other subjects which i think i can score in.
i feel its better this way.
woke up in the early today, to do chem homewk.
only did organic chem.
THEN JESSIE TOLD ME WE HAVE TO COMPLETE CHEMICAL REACTIONS ALSO!!
arghhh.. im gonna die just by doing chemistry alone.
im really glad to have dardar and my besties by my side. =))
im plannin to do fnn tmr, chemistry and poa.
please let time side with me.
oya, went to xin wang cafe today.
the chef soooo bad.. wanna sabotage my jian feii plan.
he put so much chicken breast skin in my baked rice.
and im clever enough to remove the skin. =]
hahas.
jianlong is pestering me liao.
gg to sleep soon..
tata~
i want to say it. but i do not want to upset myself...
my beloved ahma passed away exactly a week ago, on March the 26th.
She passed away at about 1.41pm, that was the time i was gallivanting away in school during the math lesson.
Relief teacher, Mr Tan was teaching us something about "transformation".
Never did i know ahma had just passed away...
I was only informed later at night, around 8pm.
Da-gu called me and said she wanted to speak to mom.
okay, this wasn't a good sign.
Why'd she want to speak to my mum for?
I asked, "ah ma 是不是发生什么事？"
Then she replied me, "ah ma 今天中午死了。"
I was so devastated by the news.
How could ahma just die on me like that???
I really feel a whole lot of regret for not visiting her although i had some time to see her in the hospital while she was still in coma.
I know many people don't get very sad over their grandparents' deaths
as they aren't very close to their grandparents.
but for me, it was a total different situation..
i grew up in ahma's house.
she took care of me and loved me with all her heart.
oh gosh. im going to cry again.... ok i won't.
i remember when i was in primary school,
i would request for her to buy for me nasi lemak from the market
she visited daily.
she had loads of friends from the market.
and with her gone now, ah gong will be so lonely.
and the whole house will feel like an empty bungalow.
the most pitiful person now would be ah gong.
he has just lost a wife and a lifelong companion.
ahma had went through all odds with ahgong all her life.
and i admire her for that.
now my goal towards this family would be to learn to speak teochew
so i can communicate well with ah gong and understand what he's
trying to say to me.
anyway, back to last wednesday.
i just broke down upon hearing the news.
Mom was in the toilet having her bath then.
yvonne also broke down upon hearing the news.
daniel hasn't any reaction. too young to understand...
i called jessie up and she comforted me
and just listened to me cry..
thank you jessie for being such a good friend.
and also to liping!
and thanks to all who sent condolence messages to me via sms!
i really do appreciate it.
i informed them that i would be skipping school the next day to go to the wake.
then the next day arrived.. 27/March/2008
i left the house at around 10++am.
it was a long ride there.
i took a bus, then the mrt, then the bus, then a cab..
finally, to ahma's house.
da-gu was there.
she brought me to ah gong to greet him first.
i greeted him and proceeded to look at ahma's body in the coffin.
ahma looked serene and peaceful.
but the first time i looked at her, i broke into sobs
and covered my face.
da-gu was standing beside me and called me, "乖"
i went to bow three times to ahma and sat down at the black couch.
er-gu came and hugged me and told me not to cry.
she told me a lot of comforting words.
i felt a lot better..
then i spent the day folding the silver and golden paper,
they were supposed to look like ingots. but in a different way.
then finally after a long time of folding,
shaoqi arrived.
he came to offer help to help me fold it.
jiaming and jiawei came soon after.
jiaming helped too..
later at night, we had our dinner.
and da-gu taught me to fold the more complicated ingots.
my mom turned up with my sis and bro at around 7.45?
we left at about 9pm for home.
then came the next day. 28/March/2008
i had to go to school. mom told me to.
i was constantly thinking of ahma
and a couple of times dropped tears in class.
i felt that it was a long day.
jessie and jielin went to the wake with me after school.
mom took the day off to fetch us to ahma's house.
we were supposed to have prayers at 3pm.
jessie and jielin left shortly after...
they also helped to fold some simple ingots too.
after that, at about 4.30,
the prayers started..
we wore some special clothings.
meant for the people related to the deceased.
i wore something close looking to my uniform.
just that it was long pants.
and a triangle hat.
and then there were a lot of noise and prayers.
i cried near the ending.
it ended at a late timing like 11pm+
before the ending, we had to ask ah ma to "cross the bridge"
i cried when i did so.
we also had to cross the bridge, a few times.
for the very last time we crossed the bridge,
we had to say, "Ah Ma, guo qiao"
really really sad.
ahma was gg to leave me forever.
but i know that she will be at someplace peaceful.
and there would no longer be pain..
all the priests and all family members headed down the long road.
as there was a big area where they could burn the paper house,
ingots (yuan bao), and car for ahma.
i intended to stay on that night but didn't.
and went home instead.
saturday. 30/March/2008
left for ahma's house via a shorter route this time.
i took 165 opp my sch to mount alvernia hospital,
transferred bus to 157 and then alighted at toh yi drive.
and took a cabby in to ahma's quiet bungalow, as it was really deep in..
some aunties of mine were already there eating their lunch.
i changed my attire to the white tee shirt. and pinned the white patch.
it was warm that day.
then i went to read my book on the small couch.
shortly after, i fell asleep.
cried every now and then...
then, i heard some noise,
the older cousins arrived..
then sis and bro arrived shortly after.
i sat there.
mom bought apple strudel for us to eat.
then soon..
dinner time again!
we seem to have fish for dinner every night.
of course with other food luh.
we had some prayers also.
then we stayed up till late.
as it was the last night,
all the aunties and uncles helped to take down the
many quilts sent by many well-wishers.
normally, we would only see 2-3 quilts from well-wishers.
but we received about 30 quilts.
i helped to tear a bit of the words out.
then folded the quilt.
i think some were being donated..
then also, i helped to take down the laminated A4 condolences message from all
the wreaths. there were about 40 wreaths bah.
we went to sleep at about 1.45am.
sunday morning. burial day. 31/march/2008
woke up at around 8am in the morning.
had breakfast. some bought by san-gu.
and didn't know what to do..
took good looks at ahma that few days.
after awhile.
we had to get specially dressed again.
this time, there were a lot of indian workers from ahgong's company who came.
and a lot of stuff happened.
i dunno how to explain...
we were told to see ahma's face for the very very very last time.
all the aunties cried hard.
i cried too..
and then we were told to take a break before leaving for the cemetery.
i went to rest at the two-seater couch.
and i broke down into sobs.
i couldn't take it anymore. i really felt sad.
i love ah ma so much.
ah quan came to comfort me and told me to control myself.
and do not let ahgong hear me cry.
if not he will be very sad...
i controlled myself but silently dropped tears.
after a while, we were supposed to kneel down directly outside the bungalow's gate.
the indian workers were gg to lift the coffin
and we were gg to head for the choa chu kang cemetery now.
and then we started to walk.
all the aunties cried again..
i started sobbing again.
till the part where we stopped at the community centre's entrance.
ahma's coffin was to be placed in the colourful lorry.
oldest uncle went in the lorry with ahma's coffin.
we went up the buses.
and took the long ride to choa chu kang.
ahma's spot was deep inside the cemetery.
i saw lots of people burning papers and stuff for the dead.
we did lots of stuff.
ahma was finally put to rest in the hole.
we left although the burial haven't finished.
we left for ahma's house.
i told myself to be strong..
and that ahma feels no pain now!
had lunch at ahma's house and then left for home shortly after.
when i reached home,
i slept as i was really tired.
till night...
i was still thinking of ahma..
today, i have slightly gotten over her death.
and want to get on with life.
but i will never forget the wonderful ahma i had in my life.
she is caring, devoted and friendly woman.
and will be blessed with an eternal life.
ahma, you will be remembered dearly forever.
i'm waiting for my aunties' news on when we can go visit
ah ma's tombstone together.
hope it is soon. i kinda miss my cousins.
hope to see them soon.
i love you ahma.
She passed away at about 1.41pm, that was the time i was gallivanting away in school during the math lesson.
Relief teacher, Mr Tan was teaching us something about "transformation".
Never did i know ahma had just passed away...
I was only informed later at night, around 8pm.
Da-gu called me and said she wanted to speak to mom.
okay, this wasn't a good sign.
Why'd she want to speak to my mum for?
I asked, "ah ma 是不是发生什么事？"
Then she replied me, "ah ma 今天中午死了。"
I was so devastated by the news.
How could ahma just die on me like that???
I really feel a whole lot of regret for not visiting her although i had some time to see her in the hospital while she was still in coma.
I know many people don't get very sad over their grandparents' deaths
as they aren't very close to their grandparents.
but for me, it was a total different situation..
i grew up in ahma's house.
she took care of me and loved me with all her heart.
oh gosh. im going to cry again.... ok i won't.
i remember when i was in primary school,
i would request for her to buy for me nasi lemak from the market
she visited daily.
she had loads of friends from the market.
and with her gone now, ah gong will be so lonely.
and the whole house will feel like an empty bungalow.
the most pitiful person now would be ah gong.
he has just lost a wife and a lifelong companion.
ahma had went through all odds with ahgong all her life.
and i admire her for that.
now my goal towards this family would be to learn to speak teochew
so i can communicate well with ah gong and understand what he's
trying to say to me.
anyway, back to last wednesday.
i just broke down upon hearing the news.
Mom was in the toilet having her bath then.
yvonne also broke down upon hearing the news.
daniel hasn't any reaction. too young to understand...
i called jessie up and she comforted me
and just listened to me cry..
thank you jessie for being such a good friend.
and also to liping!
and thanks to all who sent condolence messages to me via sms!
i really do appreciate it.
i informed them that i would be skipping school the next day to go to the wake.
then the next day arrived.. 27/March/2008
i left the house at around 10++am.
it was a long ride there.
i took a bus, then the mrt, then the bus, then a cab..
finally, to ahma's house.
da-gu was there.
she brought me to ah gong to greet him first.
i greeted him and proceeded to look at ahma's body in the coffin.
ahma looked serene and peaceful.
but the first time i looked at her, i broke into sobs
and covered my face.
da-gu was standing beside me and called me, "乖"
i went to bow three times to ahma and sat down at the black couch.
er-gu came and hugged me and told me not to cry.
she told me a lot of comforting words.
i felt a lot better..
then i spent the day folding the silver and golden paper,
they were supposed to look like ingots. but in a different way.
then finally after a long time of folding,
shaoqi arrived.
he came to offer help to help me fold it.
jiaming and jiawei came soon after.
jiaming helped too..
later at night, we had our dinner.
and da-gu taught me to fold the more complicated ingots.
my mom turned up with my sis and bro at around 7.45?
we left at about 9pm for home.
then came the next day. 28/March/2008
i had to go to school. mom told me to.
i was constantly thinking of ahma
and a couple of times dropped tears in class.
i felt that it was a long day.
jessie and jielin went to the wake with me after school.
mom took the day off to fetch us to ahma's house.
we were supposed to have prayers at 3pm.
jessie and jielin left shortly after...
they also helped to fold some simple ingots too.
after that, at about 4.30,
the prayers started..
we wore some special clothings.
meant for the people related to the deceased.
i wore something close looking to my uniform.
just that it was long pants.
and a triangle hat.
and then there were a lot of noise and prayers.
i cried near the ending.
it ended at a late timing like 11pm+
before the ending, we had to ask ah ma to "cross the bridge"
i cried when i did so.
we also had to cross the bridge, a few times.
for the very last time we crossed the bridge,
we had to say, "Ah Ma, guo qiao"
really really sad.
ahma was gg to leave me forever.
but i know that she will be at someplace peaceful.
and there would no longer be pain..
all the priests and all family members headed down the long road.
as there was a big area where they could burn the paper house,
ingots (yuan bao), and car for ahma.
i intended to stay on that night but didn't.
and went home instead.
saturday. 30/March/2008
left for ahma's house via a shorter route this time.
i took 165 opp my sch to mount alvernia hospital,
transferred bus to 157 and then alighted at toh yi drive.
and took a cabby in to ahma's quiet bungalow, as it was really deep in..
some aunties of mine were already there eating their lunch.
i changed my attire to the white tee shirt. and pinned the white patch.
it was warm that day.
then i went to read my book on the small couch.
shortly after, i fell asleep.
cried every now and then...
then, i heard some noise,
the older cousins arrived..
then sis and bro arrived shortly after.
i sat there.
mom bought apple strudel for us to eat.
then soon..
dinner time again!
we seem to have fish for dinner every night.
of course with other food luh.
we had some prayers also.
then we stayed up till late.
as it was the last night,
all the aunties and uncles helped to take down the
many quilts sent by many well-wishers.
normally, we would only see 2-3 quilts from well-wishers.
but we received about 30 quilts.
i helped to tear a bit of the words out.
then folded the quilt.
i think some were being donated..
then also, i helped to take down the laminated A4 condolences message from all
the wreaths. there were about 40 wreaths bah.
we went to sleep at about 1.45am.
sunday morning. burial day. 31/march/2008
woke up at around 8am in the morning.
had breakfast. some bought by san-gu.
and didn't know what to do..
took good looks at ahma that few days.
after awhile.
we had to get specially dressed again.
this time, there were a lot of indian workers from ahgong's company who came.
and a lot of stuff happened.
i dunno how to explain...
we were told to see ahma's face for the very very very last time.
all the aunties cried hard.
i cried too..
and then we were told to take a break before leaving for the cemetery.
i went to rest at the two-seater couch.
and i broke down into sobs.
i couldn't take it anymore. i really felt sad.
i love ah ma so much.
ah quan came to comfort me and told me to control myself.
and do not let ahgong hear me cry.
if not he will be very sad...
i controlled myself but silently dropped tears.
after a while, we were supposed to kneel down directly outside the bungalow's gate.
the indian workers were gg to lift the coffin
and we were gg to head for the choa chu kang cemetery now.
and then we started to walk.
all the aunties cried again..
i started sobbing again.
till the part where we stopped at the community centre's entrance.
ahma's coffin was to be placed in the colourful lorry.
oldest uncle went in the lorry with ahma's coffin.
we went up the buses.
and took the long ride to choa chu kang.
ahma's spot was deep inside the cemetery.
i saw lots of people burning papers and stuff for the dead.
we did lots of stuff.
ahma was finally put to rest in the hole.
we left although the burial haven't finished.
we left for ahma's house.
i told myself to be strong..
and that ahma feels no pain now!
had lunch at ahma's house and then left for home shortly after.
when i reached home,
i slept as i was really tired.
till night...
i was still thinking of ahma..
today, i have slightly gotten over her death.
and want to get on with life.
but i will never forget the wonderful ahma i had in my life.
she is caring, devoted and friendly woman.
and will be blessed with an eternal life.
ahma, you will be remembered dearly forever.
i'm waiting for my aunties' news on when we can go visit
ah ma's tombstone together.
hope it is soon. i kinda miss my cousins.
hope to see them soon.
i love you ahma.
hello you,