I... am a lazy blogger. so its not surprising to see very little posts. XD everyone knows that, don't they?
wished somebody could be in the same boat as me. it feels kinda lost to be in all this. i'm wondering why does it happen to me. why cant we just be simple? i also wish that your solution to solving the problems aren't thru separation.
in fact, after facing all these ups & downs that are unhealthy for us, we should take us more seriously and cherish each other more.
oh gosh. my head really hurts now. wish the throbbing would stop.
please.... stop..
i just hope that we could be slightly more mature in handling our matters.
no one is comparing you, its just that it's every girl's wish to be treated the best, just like a princess.
to me, promises made by you are seemingly always empty, they are always unfulfilled.
it peeves me by the thought of it.
when are you going to fulfil your promises made uncountable times?
when are you going to start regretting you not fulfilling your promises when you could?
to me, when you are arriving soon.. my heart thumps fast,
and occasionally, i smile like a fool to myself looking forward to what's about to happen soon.
to you, when you are arriving soon.. you have no reaction whatsoever. you act calm.
to me, when you are about to see me that particular day, i get nervous,
and never fail to rush you over the phone to hurry.
to you, when you are about to see me that particular day, you probably find that im a nuisance, and take your own sweet time to come.
to me, i get delighted upon hearing the time you said you would be arriving.
to you, it feels like another repeated lie.
to me, it feels like you did it on purpose.
to you, you apologise n say you don't do it on purpose, something really cropped up.
to me, whatever problems we have, i always hope for the better solution to solve it, by talking it out and thinking of a solution.
to you, whatever problems we have, you never fail to feel that i would be happier off without you, and suggesting the undesirable solution.
why?
why does it always have to be like this?
why can't we just be normal for a moment?
you got a job, i was happy for you, unknowingly pushing you further away from me when i encouraged you to work hard.
i was dumb, stupid, daft, i admit to have done that.
how i wish i could turn back the clock and discouraged you from taking up the job.
it has been eating up so much of our time together.
adding on, it caused you to be a more fiery-tempered person.
it was already bad enough, and also, sad enough i had to tolerate the loneliness at home.
and to add on yet again, when you return home late at night, you get tired and all..
i feel like at times, i am talking to a vast, white wall.
when you open up, you talk about your day at work.. which you seem to enjoy.
while i, have nothing to say about my day..
i would just have to listen to what you have to say.
most of the time, you don't know how much i get worried for you.
when you get into trouble, when you don't meet up, when you're at work, when you pick a fight with others.
do you do that for me?
i guess you only get jealous over nothing for me.
i just wonder, how much more unfulfilled promises are there going to be?
are they going to be unfulfilled till the day i leave this world?
we captured the best memories of my life.
i know we have.
you said you treasured the both of us together,
i hope you really did.
April the 1st is approaching really soon.
i'm scared for what i'm about to face.
are you going to be there going through this phase of thick and thin with me?
i pray so hard for that answer to be yes.
are you going to be there when i break down?
i want it to be yes too.
i feel that i'm escaping from reality most of the time.
i know its what i have to face, but, must i?..
iloveyou.
260708 is etched deeply in my heart.
in fact, after facing all these ups & downs that are unhealthy for us, we should take us more seriously and cherish each other more.
oh gosh. my head really hurts now. wish the throbbing would stop.
please.... stop..
i just hope that we could be slightly more mature in handling our matters.
no one is comparing you, its just that it's every girl's wish to be treated the best, just like a princess.
to me, promises made by you are seemingly always empty, they are always unfulfilled.
it peeves me by the thought of it.
when are you going to fulfil your promises made uncountable times?
when are you going to start regretting you not fulfilling your promises when you could?
to me, when you are arriving soon.. my heart thumps fast,
and occasionally, i smile like a fool to myself looking forward to what's about to happen soon.
to you, when you are arriving soon.. you have no reaction whatsoever. you act calm.
to me, when you are about to see me that particular day, i get nervous,
and never fail to rush you over the phone to hurry.
to you, when you are about to see me that particular day, you probably find that im a nuisance, and take your own sweet time to come.
to me, i get delighted upon hearing the time you said you would be arriving.
to you, it feels like another repeated lie.
to me, it feels like you did it on purpose.
to you, you apologise n say you don't do it on purpose, something really cropped up.
to me, whatever problems we have, i always hope for the better solution to solve it, by talking it out and thinking of a solution.
to you, whatever problems we have, you never fail to feel that i would be happier off without you, and suggesting the undesirable solution.
why?
why does it always have to be like this?
why can't we just be normal for a moment?
you got a job, i was happy for you, unknowingly pushing you further away from me when i encouraged you to work hard.
i was dumb, stupid, daft, i admit to have done that.
how i wish i could turn back the clock and discouraged you from taking up the job.
it has been eating up so much of our time together.
adding on, it caused you to be a more fiery-tempered person.
it was already bad enough, and also, sad enough i had to tolerate the loneliness at home.
and to add on yet again, when you return home late at night, you get tired and all..
i feel like at times, i am talking to a vast, white wall.
when you open up, you talk about your day at work.. which you seem to enjoy.
while i, have nothing to say about my day..
i would just have to listen to what you have to say.
most of the time, you don't know how much i get worried for you.
when you get into trouble, when you don't meet up, when you're at work, when you pick a fight with others.
do you do that for me?
i guess you only get jealous over nothing for me.
i just wonder, how much more unfulfilled promises are there going to be?
are they going to be unfulfilled till the day i leave this world?
we captured the best memories of my life.
i know we have.
you said you treasured the both of us together,
i hope you really did.
April the 1st is approaching really soon.
i'm scared for what i'm about to face.
are you going to be there going through this phase of thick and thin with me?
i pray so hard for that answer to be yes.
are you going to be there when i break down?
i want it to be yes too.
i feel that i'm escaping from reality most of the time.
i know its what i have to face, but, must i?..
iloveyou.
260708 is etched deeply in my heart.
hello you,